onsdag 30. september 2009

VILLANELLE

I SCREAM AND SCREAM ALL DAY LONG
BE HERE BE THERE DON'T GO
I'M DONE WITH BEING STRONG
THE SCREAMING STARTS TO TURN INTO A SONG
I DON'T MANAGE TO GROW
I SCREAM AND SCREAM ALL DAY LONG
THE WORDS IN THE SONG COMES OUT WRONG
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE WORD SLOW
I'M DONE WITH BEING STRONG
ITS NOT THAT I EVEN WANT TO BELONG
I JUST WANT TO HAVE SOMETHING TO SHOW
I SCREAM AND SCREAM ALL DAY LONG
IT DID NOT EVEN HELP TO GO TO HONG KONG
I'M STILL ALL ALONE YOU KNOW
I'M DONE WITH BEING STRONG
I CAN'T DO ANYTHING BUT RUSH ALONG
I'M TIRED NOW I THINK I GO BELOW
I NO LONGER SCREAM AND SCREAM ALL DAY LONG
I'M DONE WITH BEING STRONG

SOME POEMS

THE LAWN

the lawn is wet

thinking about getting a pet

I want one that is big and green

but someone thinks its obscene

but I will bet

that that someone is mean


SHORT ROAD

the road is short

but I'm not going to court

they will take me away

and I want to stay

I'll stay at my fort

wait- I'm going to pray



STORY

when a man is telling a story

he can go on for ages

he can talk about a girl called Dory

that has been in cages

but it is not true

because she never left Bellevue




NEVER HERE

you were never here

you lied

you disappeared


I waited alone

without my clothes

if only you had known


its cold under the tree

would you agree?

I cant hear your answer

I hate that your love is like cancer



EMPTY

my head is empty

why I do not know

maybe the thoughts left me

I can't even play with dough

all I know is that their not here anymore


maybe I can find them in the drawer

everything is going to slow

I am gonna start and ignore




mandag 28. september 2009

SONNET

to eat or not to eat

that was never the question

it was only a part of my depression

carrot, apple or meat

cake, salad or only wheat

all the choices leads to aggression

I can not even give a good impression

not even close to feel complete


I have given up the food

started to forget about my mood

I am not here right now

want to leave this world for some more

too afraid to become a complete bore

the only question I have is how?

tirsdag 15. september 2009

maybe a start.....

"My cat is dead" Jo mumbled to himself. Nobody answered, not that Jo was expecting anybody to. Anybody or anything for that matter. He would often just talk, just let the words come out of his mouth, it was not just the loneliness. He feared that if he lived in silence for too long he would forget what words sounded like all together. However this had to stop,animals would not sit next to him in restaurant or share a taxi after a night out.

The leaves were flying around. Leaving the ground, flying away, like Anna did three years ago. But the leaves don't leave a letter, Anna did not leave a letter, but a card. "I will miss you". Four words. Not even a number. Jo was all alone, he was getting used to it. Not that he liked the situation he was in, but one can get used to bad thing too.

The bench was cold. He had been sitting in the same position for the last twenty minutes, Jo could not move. He was caught between the edge of the bench on his left and some leftovers of a Big Mac meal on the other side. He tried to move the burger, but it was stuck- almost imprinted on the bench. More than Jo was. He wished he could imprint his image in to peoples minds,he wished he got more then a quick glance.

Shoes moving in different directions, people saying "HI", hugging, exchanging words, waiting for the green light, walking on red, chewing, having sips of coffee, hands shaking, laughing, kissing, holding hands, bumping into each other, running, crying, eating. Glances is all that Jo expected. However amongst all those empty stares Jo felt that something was about to change. He thought of all those tacky yet strangely reassuring quotes: " Turn your life around", "Why not today?", " Be the change you want to see in the world" and " Life is either a daring adventure or nothing". Suddenly Oprah, Ellen and Martha were getting through to him.



mandag 7. september 2009

Short story ideas...



Theme: loneliness

Setting: on a bench in a crowded street

Characters: a young boy ( main character guy A), different people passing by, another boy (potential friend to the main character guy B)

Message: how one can be lonely in a world filled with people

What happens to the characters in the story?

  • boy A alone on the bench
  • people everywhere around him- he tries to get in touch with them- struggles
  • finally boy B sits down
  • conversation- seems to be going somewhere- potential friend?
  • its getting late- boy B had to go home- boy A gets the courage to ask for his number and his facebook address- boy B has lost his phone, and he don't have a computer
  • boy B walks away "maybe I see you again someday...?"
  • boy A all alone again- walks home- no friend request on facebook...the world moves on without him...